To day we go on a family picnic to loon

 Rick is out fishing. I sent photos toBradley and Eliza.  DQis sleeping. I woke up early  and chanted my Budish chant.

Last night was the Talent show. Walker did his talk and questioning about the presidents. This morning I tried to remember the  presidents. I had a problem with Nixon. Right now it is chilly. I need to rekindle the fire. I have started to think about our trip home. I will miss being so close to everyone. Walker and Hallie and Liz did yoga. More later. I watched  Bess and Gus at the playground. They absolutely love being together. They did not want to do Wee Campers but they borrowed pipe cleaners from the rec Crew,

The Next day

I just came back from a swim at Summers with Walker, Hallie, R. Tucker and Bess. I swam alone. They were just getting out of the water when I ARRIVED ABOUT FIVE AFTER SIX. I woke at 5:57. I went to the bathroom to pee and decided to walk down and see if they were swimming. Hallie told me they had made plans. R.Tucker had his towel wrapped around his and said:”I am going to take a shower and get warm. 

We all had a family session last night. We went around the Summers living room and took turns asking questions. “Who was your friend when you were ten years old.”  “What is your favorite cookie.”  “ What was you favorite stuffy,”. “what was your favorite book?”The kids loved it. I thought we were going to play Chrades. 

I am all packed and dressed ready to go. I am not sure where Rick is. We took the boat back yesterday and then drank a beer at Walter’s Basin. I could not drink when I went to Summers because I still felt the effects of the beer. 

The looming question over Society right. Now is Transgender Rights. Each cabin at Camp has a shelf of books. I picked out two for Gus. Cole will be at Deerwood Camp next week so Gus will be all alone at Nuthatch with his parents. 

This week I have been reading”the last Train to Key West since I know nothing about Key West. It is a woman’s story, about three woman. 

Rick is writing a letter to Wendy Theilbar who will be here next week with her family. Her husband Rick died this past winter. They spent many summers with us at Camp. I just read Rick’s note to Wendy.

They will have a service for him tomorrow at the Long Hoouse. One of their daughter’s got married there and we came to the wedding. I tried to keep up with Nadia, writing coach  this week. I tried to listen to her podcast.

I read some of her assignments and I consider this entry one of her assignments since she encourages us to write as much as we can. She always stresses keeping in touch with your body.

I am drinking coffee. The cup feels warm which makes my stomach warm. I feel the warmth in my throat.I also feel it on my tongue. Since I had my bridge put in I always feel my mouth.

Back from the Talent Show Thursday

 We had an activity filled day beginning with Wacky Canoe races. After lunch there was a family pickle ball tournament, then ping pong next,  a nap then the three mile run and finally the talent show. This was memorable because of Walker’s presidential song.  He had the audience participate. Remembering parts of the song by singing the names of the president.I sat beside DQ about twelve rows back. I had trouble remembering the names.  Now  we are sitting  in Birdsall. And by the porch appreciating the quiet and the peaceful view as dark descents upon us. We hear the water lapping against the boat. DQ just walked by after taking a shower. The week has gone by too fast. Every day was fun filled. With activities. Walker, Hallie, Tucker,Liz and kids are all in Summers. It is on the main road of the camp.mi am tired but wanted to write before I go to bed. 

Today is Wednesday at Birdsall

 I am going to do Pickle ball with Joseph. I looked at Utube for some rules but do. Ot know the complete story. We only have two more days. I think Rick is out fishing . The boat is gone. Last. Ishtar we had a cocktail party with Walker’smfamily and discussed Rick’s retirement. It was worthwhile and gave Rick something to think about.

My writing life. I am doing better than ever because of Nadia’s course.  I try to keep journals but mostly to remember facts. They are filled with facts, seldom commentary about my feelings. I always feel duty to helping others. Today it is the red headed woman who has arthritis. Also, getting the coloring book and brush for Bess. I have mixed feelings about Liz. She is always a bit rude, very self confident and seldom wants to just chat although yesterday she did talk about kack I do not know how to spell the word. This is why I have always had trouble with writing.it takes so long to look up the spelling and you loose your train of thought. 

I am suppose to write a love poem to myself.

I am Mrs. wonderful.

I express kindness to everyone I meet. I am friendly, I smile often and express happiness to be with them and to be alive.

My answer to writing Nadia’s questions for June 18

 I have a love hate relationship to writing.

I like exploring what I know  and how it affects my life.

But, I worry about making mistakes. When I didn’t write it was because I worry about not spelling the words right and not punctuation correctly and if. Someone who  reads it they will criticize what I wrote. Writing is also about exploring your emotions. When you write you are talking to yourself on paper. Later you are talking to the audience of people who read it. There are many audiences, this is what I remember.

Writing is thinking on paper. You have to reflect on what you are thinking.

But  now I am looking at the mountains right now. People see this same view and have different thoughts when they see this view. They have different experiences in their body and in their head. Nadia is trying to get us to experience our body as we write.

Always or I would think almost always peaceful feelings. What did I see that was peaceful as a child?

The River, inside St.Patrick’s, where I had to be quiet. I read the poem about trees and it made me look at trees.

Right now the leaves are flowing, moving, fluttering in the breeze, behind them is the water and the mountains. 

We think of peace as stillness

But the water is moving and the leaves are moving and I feel peace.

Why

 I am still even though I just heard a sound, a cough.

Who made that sound?

Someone is close by but I cannot see them I hear. Rick, David and Joseph are close by fishing. They must feel peaceful and safe but they are exploring there. World, their peaceful surroundings. 

Kids doing rubric’s cube

 Four kids are working on rubrics cube. Joseph said he could complete it in one minute and four seconds. We timed him and it was one minute and twenty seconds. He continued to watch videos on my computer and practice.

This is the next day. Tucker’s family is out climbing and swimming. 

I am here doing Module 8.

I did the meditation which was chanting and looking at light houses. The colors were spectacular.

 Next I started the close readings and read about Malcolm X. He taught himself to read in prison. I want to be a better writer and that is why I am doing this blog. I am not philosophical about it. It takes me time to just get the facts down and tend the mechanics correct. I still worry about commas. Maybe Malcolm never did. I think about writing a book, I could probably handle a children’s book.  Y goal now is to finish my, Volumne 2.

We are going to eat Bagels for lunch.

 Tucker gave me the schedule for today. The boys are going downtown to Rick’s office to pick up the amp of the County that hangs in his office. Walker will hang it in his house. Cole started the puzzle but went to get dressed I think. I have to keep noticing my emotions and trying to figure out how I feel. The boys were looking at baseball cards downstairs. I don’t want to go down there because I don’t want to talk to Liz. I will feel an emotions. 

I learned emotions come in waves. We usually have mixed emotions. This is what I am having toward Liz. 

Right now Cole is working on the sicker book. It was too hard for Gus. He is talking to himself which is what he is suppose to do. Liz returned from her run, all sweaty.she came over and said hello, and asked us what we were doing. I told her and she went down stairs. 

On the news,Pat sayjack retired or he will retired at the end of the year. Also, today president Trumps will be invited. 

Gus wants to be with his parents. They gave hi a watch which he fulls with a lot. We are sitting on the sofa.I always want to talk. The boys are talking to each other. 

Grandkids Dad and mom visit

Right now Cole has his feet in the foot massager we gave Rick. I have already been up reading about emotions. I always feel I must talk to someone. I want to start the conversation or make people happy. Tucker is fixing breakfast for the kids. We are talking about the box of documents found at Mar o lago in Florida. Tucker is in the living room taking the tops off the strawberries. Cole is very intent so I don’t want. To bother him. Yesterday wee played games downstairs, then we all went out and the kids played basket ball and also went  out on the canoe. 

Liz is celebrating her twentieth reunion from UVA architectural  school. She studied as an undergraduate and graduate. The TV is on and Cole is watching it intently. 

The kids are intent on watching the TV. Gus 

Visited my granddaughter

 My plan was to wait until Thursday. But B wrote it was ok. When I got there B. Was in front of her computer and Eliza was asleep. I drove to the shopping center and had a pedicure. My nails are now a bright pink. I fraught over the color since the women next to me was having hers done a natural color. I saw a row of these colors on the far wall.  The beautician giggled the whole time I was  there. She was very young. She probably spoke little English.

I returned to Grey Rock and found B. And Eliza fixing food in the kitchen. It was two minutes after twelve. There was talk I do not remember and offers of a peach which I accepted. I was also invited to see the porch. B. Had staine d the floor a darker color. 

Eliza made herself ramen noodles with Spinach. She put it in a bowel and sat opposite me. She showed me  her Agatha Cristiembook which she had just begun to read. Why did I feel uneasy?

We will meet on Saturday and go to the yellow Mug. 

This is the sign that was in front of Walker’s house on his birthday. 

Went to see Dr.Minderstram

 I now have a very young arthritis doctor who practices in Building 500 on Pantops part of the Sentara site.

I also went to Good Will with a large bag of goods and a table we have had for years.

I bought a ring for 9.99 and playing cards. I am in bed. I am going to clean our guest room the living room and my art studio today.,

Eliza and I are on the deck

 I am spending the day with Eliza. Right now she is reading her book from the library. We had an adventurous day beginning with a drink and sweet at the “Yellow Mug” a new coffee shop in Crozet.

Back at West Leigh

We talked about what to do next and decided on a walk in Narnia behind our house. She went on the swing and the. We went to Fran Banitti’s garden and walked. We sat down and she read the first chapter of her book. We also returned my tape to the Crozet library and she picked out a book to read. We left Narnia and took the long way home by way of the bamboo forest. She helped me across the creek. I think they built a second house at my neighbor Martha’s house. It is quite peaceful. Ow and I hate to disturb the peace and quiet. 

When we got home and we’re walking down the driveway she suggested we take a canoe so that was our next adventure. She did all the work of getting the canoe in and out of our pond. Lock Leigh. 

We canoed the length of the lake. We saw the geese and then turned around. It is very muddy so we did not go to the very end. On the trip back we found a sea shell which is sitting on top of the jacuzzi drying. 

Someone else was fishing in their knack. I wanted to buy new clothes from TJ max but decided that she had to make the decisions so I have to think about that.